Thursday, April 15, 2010

Emotionally Awkward

Work has me feeling like I'm going mad. I'm stressed. I'm anxious. I'm feeling incompetent. I know it will get better but right now I feel like I'm floating in the Sea of Hell on a dinghy with 3rd degree sunburns.

Ever have one of those moments when you haven't cried in awhile and you can feel things building up and then someone says something like "Andrew Garcia and Katie Stevens were eliminated on Idol last night" and you break down like someone just told you that your favorite pet died?

I did. Today. At my place of employment. Thankfully, I was at my desk, but still.

A few people that walked by looked at me like 'what the f*ck' and kept moving which is appropriate because I was thinking 'what the f*ck Jen', and tried to keep moving.

It only lasted a couple of minutes but it was humiliating real and it happened.

I left during my lunch because I had to escape for awhile.

I basked in the sun and it was all the therapy I needed. For now anyway. It will get me through the afternoon at least.

It's amazing how therapeutic nature can be at times.

Maybe I'll get a little cabin in Lincoln, Montana and live under the surname Kaczynski.

On second thought, maybe I'll just watch the weather and schedule a vacation day when the sun is shining.

1 comment:

Brandie said...

I'm sorry you're so stressed out. That is very frustrating...I'm glad you got outta here for a little bit to enjoy the sun and clear your head. And YES...take that day off! You need it!