Breaking the Ice

It's not that I haven't missed you, I have.

I've got so much going through my head I can't keep up. I'd say it keeps me awake at night, but I'm so tired at the end of the day I'm usually in bed by 9:30.

Things I've contemplated in the last month or two: job change, employer change, selling our house to buy a different house, moving to another state, quitting school, and/or quitting work to focus on school. Yeah, that's about it, but it's big stuff isn't it? Kudos to hubby for discussing all of this with me. I'm sure it got annoying listening to me try to 'find our long-term solution' when he's a man that could live in the same spot, work the same job, and probably eat the same meal every day of his life until the end. He's a creature of habit, I'm a creature of change. We always find middle ground though. I'm happy with where things are headed.

Presently, work is nuts. I'm overwhelmed to say the least and yet strongly encouraged to not put in any extra time. 1. because they short-staffed themselves and don't want to pay and 2. it would mean someone would have to admit fault in planning. Let me tell you, THAT'S not happening. Don't get me wrong, I love this company but I'm not seeing how there vision for the future is going to work. I'll just have to wait and see I guess. Plus, I don't like speaking poorly of my job or company To put this on here has been tough but it's been sinking it's teeth into me for a few months and I'm venting. It doesn't mean I'm crying in the bathroom or job searching on my lunch breaks; it means I'm really stressed right now. In the meantime, I deal. I'm just focusing on the vacations I'll be taking this year and I'm squeezing every minute out of my weekends off.

I've been trying to finish a book for over a month now. I haven't opened it in over 2 weeks. I like it, I just haven't been in the reading mood. I'm going to crack it open for the last 15 minutes of my lunch break and see if I can get re-interested. (Is re-interested a word? If not, it is now.)

The Biggest Loser has started back up. I. Love. That. Show. Lots of good stuff. I find it very motivating. Plus, watching morbidly obese people sweat, scream, and cry makes me feel better about my life in a way because they are suffering in a way I know I won't ever have to. Atleast I've been lucky enough to have been raised by a mother that didn't take us to fast food restaurants for our meals or let us eat entire bags of chips or drink liters of soda in front of a television for hours at a time. That's right, I blame the parents. They enabled. A child relies on a parent to provide nutrition and if they aren't providing proper nutrition, they have failed to keep their kid healthy. The kid doesn't stand a chance. They pass on eating habits and exersize habits. Or has the system failed? Is the system providing enough money to low-income families to allow them to afford items in the produce section versus the box dinner section? I don't know. This is getting deeper than I intended to go . . . next subject.

American Idol starts tonight. Meh. Most of the auditions bore me and I can't tolerate to watch them anymore. I'll probably tune in when they are down to 12 contestants or less. However, I am excited about the rotating guest judges this year. They are: Victoria Beckham (great hair), Mary J. Blige (so talented), Kristin Chenoweth (no idea who this chick is), Neil Patrick Harris (Dooooooogie! I'll never get past it, sorry), Joe Jonas (over-rated teeny-bopper with Lyle Lovett hair), Avril Lavigne (not a fan), Katy Perry (I wonder what she'll wear), and Shania Twain (has-been). The best part of the season is that once the Idol's are in Hollywood, Ellen will be there to judge them. I hope she cracks on the contestants pretty good. I love me some Ellen, she's hilarious! Plus, she can totally out-dance Percocet Paula in my opinion.

Friday Night Lights starts up again soon. Football uniforms, cheerleading uniforms, and lots of pretty people. Two words. Taylor Kitsch Thank goodness for DVR folks. I really do have a life away from my television, but I've been sucked in and can't stop watching!

Time's up, my lunch is over. See how much reading I got in? Oh well, tomorrow maybe. Off to a meeting. Have a great day!