Finding Me

It seems like all I do is updates on here anymore. I really need to get back to writing something meaningful. I need to add a bit of heart and soul. I am constantly pausing throughout my days and say to myself, 'I should write about that on my blog' but it never makes it here. My life is a never-ending buzz of busy. Someday I will probably look back on these days and miss them so badly it will bring tears to my eyes.

So what's new?

I'll start with our home since it's the easiest item on the list. We still need gutters, shutters, electric ran into the new garage, a garage door, and our chimney's painted. Oh, and our deck built. The deck will most likely be a Spring project since we are running out of nice days at a rapid pace. We've written so many checks this summer it makes my head spin and my chest tightens when I look at our finances. I have to keep telling myself that this is all a wonderful investment. I love all of the updates and changes. I've wanted this for so long and now that it is happening I feel contentment but I also feel a little anxious that all of our pennies we put back and have now 'invested', will take 20 years to put back into our account. Vicious cycle. Save and spend.

Onto what's new with Turner. As most of you know, Turner is in daycare/preschool. His classmates all moved onto the next room a week or so ago. Turner, one other little girl, and a little boy were kept back. He has asked me when he gets to go to Miss Abby's class with his friends and why he has to play with the little kids. (the newly 3 year olds have been added to his class) I explained to him that he is not 4 years old yet and all of the other kids are. I told him that after he turns 4 he will get to go to the next room. I'm not sure when he might be able to transition since he is not 'up to speed' with the rest of the 4 year olds. I am hopeful that it will be sooner than later. On the same token, I wouldn't want him put into a class that he is not developmentally prepared for. I trust that his teacher knows what is best and he is where he should be at this  time. He is growing up so fast. He asks alot of questions and takes me by surprise with what he knows and picks up on. He is the love of my life, that little handsome man! I enjoy looking at him when he plays and when he's deep in thought or when he sleeps. The innocence of a child. I can't hug him or kiss him enough these days!

Lauren has a tooth! When I go to get her from her crib in the morning, she is always on all fours rocking back and forth. She will be crawling soon. She's still holding the 'Best Baby Ever' title. She's always smiling and has a very quiet and sweet demeanor. Man oh man do I love that girl of mine!

Tanner is working a lot, but he manages to work in play as well. I admire him. I am envious of his control of emotion and calmness. I know he is overwhelmed with our life right now but he is a strong man. He has a lot of heart. He's not a quitter. He's the best partner in life. I love him more and more each day.

Well, this blog post isn't anywhere near what I intended to write about. Hopefully soon I won't be boring you with generic details of my life. I'll actually have something that gets you thinking. Something you can feel.

Have a good night and thanks for hanging in there.